WHO AM I?

      As I reminisce a year back when I undergone the Peer Counseling Training, I proudly take into account the knowledge I congregated as a product of that noble event. Here I am again to answer this kind of question confronting my whole personality. Before, as I spent my time with the counselors, I was asked with the same question. To be honest, it's really hard to know one self but it is necessary. For you to know others know yourself. To understand others understand yourself. But it takes time to accomplish because you need to know everything with in you, accept it, and learn with it.

      I am Kestrel. Behind this name, I am who's on the process and still not perfectly molded as well-rounded individual. I am who look forward towards my goal, is a person with dark spots and discouragement. I am adventurous and I love to discover unusual things but I am afraid of what I don't know. I am important but I am unknown. If I were to put my self on the field, I am a farmer plowing my own lifeless stalks. I had with me

this attitude, willing to take the challenge but afraid. Maybe or really I am just low self-esteemed. It is easy to say that I am kind, I am affectionate, I am honest, I am positive. The hardest thing there is to accept that behind those sunny aspects of mine, I am still facing the mirror of darkness and I don't know how to conquer it. This is me. I am positive but my negative side is pulling me down to failure. I always put into my mind that I must think hopefully, speak hopefully, and act hopefully. Those that I mention are true to myself but I am trying to go beyond embracing the hope as my powerful attitude. No matter what life crisis I may face, regardless of what transpires in my life, I will always retain the option to choose hope. Despite all my discouragement, I am happy to live life in its fullest. I am friendly and I can be trusted. I love myself and I am trying to cultivate my self-structure for my better personality. I love everything in me because I know I am unique.

      I reflect God as a whole. Though I am not that completely molded, I know I am getting the chance to be His faithful creation. I am what as I am now and I can be as far as I deserve.

- keyxztrel :)